Every Time We Talk

Every time we talk, I always get this mixture of feelings, feelings that’s so hard to describe.

For me, you’re still the same person I used to know, so passion about your works, and being so warm to everyone around you. It seems like you are so close to me, for I can still relate to you, because you’re still the same old you I remember.

Every time we talk, I feel glad that there’s someone at the other side of the world still recognizes me. It’s been three years since I left, and a lot of people that I consider best friends of the time, probably don’t remember my name anymore. What’s left are only the old blogs we used to share, memories of the past, and empty promises that we once tell each other we will accompish together. But, you, at least you, maybe the only one, still remember me. It doesn’t matter if it’s only five minutes, ten minutes of talking or just one hello, you warm up my heart.

Every time we takk, I always get this mixture of feelings that cannot be described.

Looking through your blog, it seems that you are enjoying every minute of you life, ready to face new challenges. Whereas me, still defining my position, trying to run away from the obstacles in front of me. You set the model before me, and I sometimes feel jealous, because I know, I’m never going to be as good as you.

Every time we talk, you seem like you are one step and one step further away from me, from the place where everyone first started out together, and now you are so far ahead, far beyond where my hands can reach, far beyond where my eyes can see. Remember the first two month of school, everyone in the class, begin our journeys from the same starting line. However, as the journey continued, I got trapped by the midst, trying to understand who I’m really am, and then you pull me out. As the journey continued, I lost my way, wandering in the past memories I cannot get by, but you showed me the direction. And now, when I'm trying to look for you, you’re just too far…

Although you give me all these feelings, but
Every time we talk, I smile with joy, because I know, you’re still my friend.